Michael’s Repentance: Introducing Myself and My Problems

Hey, everyone I know that I’ve have been absent on Facebook for while. I wanted to let everyone in on some of the things going on with me (past and present). This is just a little bit of what you can expect from me in the future.

Most people who know me, know I’m a strange dude. I’m socially awkward, secretive, pretentious (for like no reason) and I have an incredibly bad memory.

These are just some of the major problems that I have. I am currently working on them but I also have some darker problems, some really dark chronic issues I’m dealing with. These problems, I have been dealing with them my whole life. But more recently these problems have directly hurt the people I my life who I care about most.

I would like to apologizing to the fans of my music. Around this time last year thousands of fans a day were visiting this site and engaging with my music. Unfortunately since this time I’ve not been able to be consistent with my work. Whether it was the music, the blog(s), the reviews, KYFR, or the Youtube videos.

I was not able to stay consistent. I’m an extremely dysfunctional person. And despite a ton of effort that was put into me, I was not able to sustain these efforts (I just have a hard time understanding things honestly). Despite the fact that all of you (the fans) gave me your time and all of these projects were receiving high level of success given the short time I had them active. These success over that period was really all due to the had work of RJ Knight.

Rj really pushed and tried, stayed positive, calm and always looked for another way to engage with me. He always looked for a way that we can do this better. How I can function and not go down the dark road that I was on at the time. He saw it more clearly than I did, especially that the road I was on was soon coming to an end. I was going to end up hurting people and myself.

This is only the tip of the iceberg of the things I need to apologize for. I look at the ways that I have negatively affected the people around me. I also look at the potential ways in which things could have been better (for everyone I know) and I really am sorry for messing that up. I’m working really hard on myself to change and I really want to give you all the best me I can be.

This is why I’m going to be releasing a repentance blog series, which I try to air all my issues out (work on correcting those behaviors or problems in the future). I’m working really hard to better myself and I’m trying to make up the negativity I’ve brought into people’s lives. As I remember things (bad memory and low awareness remember) I’ve done wrong, I will try to write about them, and I will try even harder to make up for them. I’ll be posting more here as I release more of these thoughts and repentance(s).